Question: Why is it that the happier you get the more scared you become? Whether it is in your personal or professional realm, I notice that the happier I get the more I act out as though I don't deserve it; but I know I do! Logically this makes no sense to me. How can I know something and still feel the complete opposite? This is where one needs to take a deep look into themselves and understand the reasons, and acknowledge the insecurities. Insecurities go deep into a person's psyche. It may take you years to understand why you feel uncomfortable about things, but you must first recognize those feelings & actions, and see how they relate to your life NOW; not how they made you feel in the past. We are all connected mentally and emotionally to our past. Whether it was an absent father or an unfaithful partner, those things helped us to develop a pattern (good or bad) as to how we relate and, or react to things. Although those bad patterns exist, they can be changed if dealt with properly. For sometime now I have been trying to understand why people, including myself, sabotage their happiness. It is not a thought process because if I really thought before I did a lot of things...those actions would never occur. It is all about growing up and taking responsibility for yourself...your actions, your feelings, your worth. I am great at a lot of things but I realize the things I need to work on as well. Will I ever be great at those things? Yes, in time I will. Where do you make the conversion of just saying and wanting and actually doing? Things like this do not happen overnight, and I would be fooling myself, as well as others if I say that tomorrow I won't have some of the feelings that make me react in negative ways. I can say that I will move toward making tomorrow a day that I do something positive to counteract the negative feelings. When I feel the negativity I will ask myself why. Being totally honest with myself and owning it. I would love to know your opinions to the question I asked at the beginning, "Why is it that the happier you get the more scared you become?"

Keep Striving, Disappointments are the tools of life...they define you.

Good Morning my loves, When striving for success you will encounter disappointment often, don’t let it deter you from your goal, stay the course and understand that falling down or failing isn’t the problem…it is what you do next that determine your character. That sets the tone for how you will steer your course in life. I have a goal set in mind, I have aspirations and dreams, I focused on this one particular goal and although I don’t have it now doesn’t mean that I will not have it soon or even later. I allowed the way I feel about this particular situation affect me mentally, and physically, it was not intended…just kind of happened. I prayed about it and even now as I type this I realize that I didn’t let those bad feelings go…not until about a couple hours ago. I release all that negative energy I was holding because things weren’t or haven’t gone my way. I embrace what God has for me, my faith is strong, my heart and arms are open to receive. I know that I am worthy and if what I am pursing doesn’t happen right now, I know it will happen soon. Don’t give up on your goals just because you get a no, go through the motions, remember who you are and keep it moving. Talk with a friend or mentor, pray and understand that a no is not the end, it may be that great beginning that you need. Go hard, be fair and know your worth.